WHITE RAGE—WHAT IT FEELS LIKE IN PERSON
When I read the book, WHITE RAGE by Carol Anderson, it set me free. I have been experiencing WHITE RAGE all of my life and did not understand it.
I cannot tell you what WHITE RAGE is but I can tell you what it feels like and what my experiences with it have been.
I experienced WHITE RAGE for the first time when I made the Honor Fraternity my first semester of College. I did not get invited to join because no Black had ever made the Honor Fraternity before. I challenged my denial and was accepted. I did not get my picture taken with the group. Later when I did get an invitation, I was followed home by some white males. They wanted to intimidate me. I made the Dean’s List every semester except one until my senior year. Then I experienced extreme discrimination in grading. This was the way they got you when you attended an all white college. They did not want you to challenge the whites in getting into graduate programs. They had to show you that you were not good enough. For example, I once made a 98 on an exam and was given the lowest grade in the class. I was the only Black in the class.
I experienced WHITE RAGE again when I made three A’s, one B, and a C in my doctoral program and was told that I must repeat the entire year of work. They created new rules for me and stated the written policy of the school was not going to apply to me. There were two sets of standards for the privileged and Blacks and Browns at that time.
I experienced WHITE RAGE again when I was in law school and they created a new Honor Code Violation for me and alleged that I had committed Code Violation of Solicitation and “Attempt Plagerism even though no work of another was involved. They were angry at me for some unknown reason—WHITE RAGE. I was accused of trying to take over the law school by many students. I have never in my life asked another student to help me with my work without permission from the professor. Moreover, I did not violate his restrictions or instructions. Additionally, under the school policy no violation occurred as I had graduated before takin course–hence no violation had occurred–it was the translation of a foreign language and law school does not require a foreign language; so the entire project could have been translated without a violation occurring per the University policy.
I experienced WHITE RAGE again when denied a license to practice law in Michigan and they made up new rules for me that did not apply to other applicants and concealed the document indicating that I had graduated before I ever took the class. Thus, there was no Honor Code Violation. Texas, Michigan and Illinois concealed these documents to defeat my law suits and appeals. This was a character and fitness examination and they were engaging in unlawful and unethical conduct. Moreover, the same day that I was denied, another white student was licensed who had done prison time for killing a person whom he thought had stolen some drugs from him. He was either using or selling drugs at the time. He was considered rehabilitated because he served time for voluntary manslaughter and wrote a book about it. I was Black and poor. There was no rehabilitation for that.
I experienced WHITE RAGE when I moved to Brazos County in 2004. I was a licensed lawyer and Social Worker. I had been a Social Worker for thirty five years and a lawyer for four years at the time. I was stopped repeatedly. One time I was accused of going one mile over the speed limit. I was followed by the police and they engaged in warrantless searches of my home and bragged about it at my trial. Lt. Arnold stated that “We had been engaging in warrantless searches of Miss Mayfield’s home because she had never been convicted of anything except an unpaid parking ticket. We found a large check in her home and we secured an out county subpoena for those records. We had to obtain enough evidence to obtain a search warrant. Moreover, the 10th Court of Appeals in Waco, Texas ruled that the search warrant was valid because they were investigating and obtained legal wires. The police did not need to be investigating a crime to obtain a warrant. They could be investigating civil or legal wires to sustain a search and seizure in Texas. Did I tell you that I was arrested without a warrant in the police station? I was not allowed to see a complaint, probable cause or anything. I was deprived of $44,100.00 in a cashier’s check and funds on deposit at my bank plus a wire of $17,000.00 plus $12,000.00 plus in silver and my receivables for my court appointed work. These funds have never been returned to me even though they were not obtained in any type of criminal activity of any kind. Moreover, at the time of my arrest, I did not have any criminal liability for any type of criminal activity of any kind that I am aware of. A trial was conducted and I was not allowed to see any exhibits admitted into my trial. When the trial was complete, I was never allowed a complete enough transcript for and appeal. The judge ruled that they were suspending the Code of Criminal Procedure, state statutes, the state and United States Constitution. All Courts including the United States Supreme Court ruled that this was okay if the applicant/defendant was Black, female and poor. The usual rules do not have to be applied to their case. The 10th Court of Appeals rules that I should not be shown exhibits admitted into court because “She should have known what was on the documents.” The incredible things is that there is nothing that the State could use as a crime against me without making things up because I had no criminal liability for anything at the time except an unpaid parking ticket which Lt. James Arnold freely admitted at my hearing to reduce bail. I was the victim. A client sent me fourteen American Express checks in the mail. I deposited twelve of those checks in the mail on December 18, 2006. As of the date of trial, per the American Express Expert of the State, the checks had not been presented to American Express for payment. Per the Texas Banking Code, if the checks are not presented to an Article 4 Bank for payment within 30 days, all liability for endorsement is discharged. I was not notified of dishonor within thirty days by the bank. I did not have any criminal liability for those checks. I was responsible contractually to the bank for the funds. The only one who could prosecute me or file charges against anyone was myself. I could file charges against the person who gave me the checks. I DID NOT FILE CHARGES AGAINST MY CLIENT’S CUSTOMER AT HIS REQUEST. He stated that the person had been a customer for fifteen years. I spent 31 months in jail for a crime with a maximum sentence of 24 months. I had no criminal liability under Texas Law for those checks. Every time I file a Writ in the District Court, the prosecution lies, destroys my documents and the judge does not conduct a hearing which is mandated by the statute when you allege absolute innocence as I am alleging. The Texas Court of Criminal Appeals destroys my documents and creates new ones when I file them in their court. THIS IS TEXAS JUSTICE. YOU JUST HAVE TO BE BLACK IN TEXAS. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO COMMIT A CRIME. ONCE YOU ARE CHARGED, YOU LOSE ALL HOPE OF ANY JUSTICE.
I think I understand WHITE RAGE because of what was happening at the time. I had not lost a case in Brazos County. I was getting print and broadcast news coverage of my cases all over the state of Texas. I had won two cases at the First Court of Appeals. One of the cases had been upheld by the Texas Supreme Court and was cited in the 2004 Family Code. The other case had been a fifteen page opinion in which the Court stated that this was going to be the new precedent in the area. I had won criminal cases in several counties and I was in the news for representing persons who were in danger of losing their homes because of violations of deed restrictions. I was interviewed on National Radio Shows in the New York, Washington D.C. and Maryland areas regarding deed restrictions. I had just obtained a job with the federal government in Social Work. I would be earning approximately $85 to $90,000.00 a year. Judges in Texas were only earning $70,000.00 at the time. I had informed all the judges that I would be leaving. I was to start the hiring in process the next week. Lt. Arnold testified that they had been searching my home for some time without a warrant in order to be able to obtain enough evidence to support a warrant. He stated that he had been meeting with all the judges. They saw that I had obtained judgments for $1.3 million and there were three other banks who could be sued. The victory at the Texas Supreme Court level would bode success against the other three banks in question. Additionally, I had won jury verdicts and judgments in two other cases of $80,000.00 and $60,000.00 and $15,000.00 in attorney fees which had not been collected. The police seized a cashier’s check of $4,100.00 with the purchase receipt, a check of $40,000.00 which was a loan payment arranged by my broker in Canada for a fee and has been verified as good by the manager of the First Convenience Bank, $12,000.00 in silver, and all of my receivables from my court appointed work. They also seized all of my tax records since 1968, all of my student loan records and payment receipts from 1968 to the present; mortgage records and payment receipts from1978 to 2007, Timeshare records and payment receipts from 1997 to the 2007 and all personal and financial records from 1966 to 2007. They later came back and continued to steal all of my personal and business records until 2020. They continue to rob my safe deposit boxes at Capitol One and State Bank of Texas on a regular basis as well as burglarize my apartment, my car, homes of my friends, and two churches that I left documents with in safekeeping. I think I really understood WHITE RAGE when I could not obtain a trial transcript. I have never seen a trial transcript complete enough to make an appeal twelve years after my conviction. When I filed a complaint against the court reporters for refusing to sell me a copy of the transcript, the court reporter agreed to sell me a copy of the transcript. She only lied to the Judicial Commission. She sold my lawyer friend a bogus transcript with a different crime. It was not my trial at all. She stated at the hearing in sworn affidavits that she had never recorded or transcribed material portions of my trial. The first two days of my trial were never recorded and transcribed as well as the Hearing to set Bail pending appeal. Also, approximately, fifty percent of the defense objections and rulings of the judge in my trial were deleted and never transcribed. The District Clerk Mark Hamlin stated to me that he had taken the transcript of my case to the Texas Court of Criminal Appeals. Then all of the records of my original trial were destroyed and new documents with several different crimes have been posted with my name. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT WHITE RAGE IS BUT I KNOW WHAT THE RESULTS FEEL LIKE. Imagine being arrested and tried for something for which you have no criminal liability. The maximum sentence for the crime is 24 months but out of spite, they keep you in jail for 31 months. Then this is not enough, they feel that they must smear your reputation by conducting secret trials and finding you guilty in those jury trials and you have never been charges, tried and convicted of those crimes. You do not ever know when the trials were conducted. Your name is smeared and you are made a criminal. I know what WHITE RAGE feels like!!! How many Black men have died in Texas in this same manner? I cannot be silent, this practice must end. How did I go from only having an unpaid parking ticket to felon without committing a crime?
Imagine the kind of hatred that it takes to falsely accuse someone of a crime and cause them to be executed? I revert to the old slave writings in which slaves were boiled in pots until all the flesh was stripped from their bones. They would be shot for trying to get out of the boiling pots. The corruption in the judicial system must be stopped in order the save not only the the victim of the injustice but the perpetrator of the corruption of the system and the system itself. Reform is long overdue. This corrupt judicial system in Texas cannot continue to stand!!!
