VICTIM SHAMING WILL NOT STOP ME AGAIN
It took me a long time to realize that I was not properly defending myself because of victim shame. I have decided that victim shame will not stop me. I will fight until the law is applied in my case and there is change in the judicial system so that defendants are given fair trials and meaningful appeals. Massive wrongful incarcerations and the execution of the innocent must stop in America.
I was raped in college and I did not file charges. I remember my rapist saying that I was lucky that he used a condom. In retrospect, I was embarrassed and ashamed that I had allowed myself the trust the wrong person. I blamed myself for being so gullible. I was again shamed in Brazos County when I was charged with forgery. I knew that I had not committed forgery or even attempted to do the same. I was so embarrassed and ashamed that I was involved in such a mess that I was immobolized. I kept hearing “she is a lawyer, she should have known better.’ I was shamed that I had been in academia all of my life and the ordinary criminal could put something over on me. It was later that I remembered the minister saying to me privately some years ago: ” Helen, when you are working and studying to improve your life, someone will be studying how to steal everything that you will try to earn and accumulate. They do not want to work as you have done to accumulate what you have. They will be trying to figure out how to get what you have worked so hard to accumulate and take what you have earned.”
The police took approximately twenty thousand dollars from me in a $4100.00 cashier’s check with the receipt from Comerica Bank, all of my personal and bank receipts, tax records from 1968 to 2008, mortgage records and receipts from my home purchased in 1978 in Michigan, all of my student loan payments and records, payment receipts on my timeshare in Greensprings, Virginia, receivables from my law practice, my cash and silver collection, law files and records. The court has refused to conduct hearings and denied all motions for the return of my property. The record has been altered to indicate that my property has been returned to me. That order was signed by Judge Steve Smith. This means my property was stolen. They never intended to return my property and I have no recourse. I am mad. No one should have this type of right to steal and break the law. Something has to change. They made it seem that they were entitled to do anything to me because I was a victim of a crime. I should have known better. I should have protected myself better from scams. I was so ashamed that I was totally immobolized for a time. Then I decided that it was not my fault. It was not my fault that I was falsely accused of a crime, imprisoned for almost one year more than the maximum sentence, had the records destroyed and altered by “criminals”. Law abiding people do not falsify and alter government records. I saw red last week when I saw a document in the file that indicated my records, files and documents have been returned to me. There is no evidence that any document from my legal files or personal records have been returned. Someone has tried to steal my life and has gotten away with it.
Since December, 2016, there have been two attempts on my life. Elwyn believes that if I do not stop, they will kill me. They are getting very close. Massive amounts of money are being spent. All documents and records in Texas and federal courts have been altered including those in the United States Supreme Court. My home and car are burglarized weekly by someone. My records are stolen over and over everytime I get new copies. These documents cannot be replaced. All of my copies of my records were stolen from my saftety deposit box. I will give more details in the books. I am learning daily that the culprits are not only the common thieves.
I will no longer be victim shamed. I will not blame myself for the rape, being a victim of a scam. These events made me who I am. I will not stop until my case is reviewed by someone and I get my name cleared. Wrongful incarcerations and executions in Texas must stop. Equal Protection of the law and Equal Justice for All in America is a goal.
